Week 35 Pregnancy

Tuesday, January 13, 2015



The past week and a half was probably the worst week of my entire life; I really didn't know I could feel this sad. My grandfather passed away suddenly on 2nd January. I mean it's not exactly a big surprise because he's been in and out of the hospital for the last 2 years, but recently he seemed to be feeling better and we're all excited about the upcoming arrival of baby, and then I woke up to D telling me he's gone. That was it, no last words nothing. And the next thing I knew I was surrounded by paramedics, policemen and relatives. 

And then 2 days later I started to experience painful cramping, so we went to the hospital one day after the cremation and there was a possibility I might go into premature labour due to all the stress. Sighpie. So in the end I'm issued home rest, as movement induces labour, until at least week 36/37 when it's safe for baby to come out. 

Being stuck at home made me think a lot, especially since I was suffering from insomnia as well. I really wish I could just blame it all on pregnancy hormones, but I know how easily I fall when bad things happen. At the same time I felt really bad that Kayla had to go through my crying spells and all when she's just a little foetus, and wondering if this would have a negative impact on her life in the future. Now that I'm calmer I really thank God for giving me this baby, if not for Kayla I probably would have spiralled more out of control. I also felt better when she gives me little kicks while I'm down, reminding me that there is somebody else here with me. 

Babies are truly a gift from God ♥︎


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21 comments

  1. Our deepest sympathies go out to you and your family. May YaHuWaH give you the comfort and Shalom that you seek and may the soul of your loved one rest in our Abba Father's bosom.

    Barbara Rae

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  2. May our Master Yahushua baruch/bl-ss and comfort you and your family during this time of grief. Please accept our sincere condolences. Thanks Abba Father that your Kayla has been with you throughout this time and encouraged you in her little way...she is so sweet!

    Kimberly

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  3. Prayers and fond memories are what we have to remember our dearly departed. May the love of family and friends comfort you during these difficult days, our most heartfelt condolences.
    Yes, take care of your little one who has all her trust on you 100%

    Marco Sánchez

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  4. A person that departs from this earth never truly leaves, for they are still alive in our hearts and minds, through us, they live on. Please accept my condolences, he will not be forgotten.

    Take very good rest of yourself now as upon your baby's arrival, you will be very busy just to keep up with her grow every day....yet be assured that she shall be your exceedingly great reward of life from our Creator Father.....Praise Yah for His unfailing love in our life!

    Psalm 68:4 Sing to Elohim, sing praises to His Name. Raise up a highway for Him Who rides through the deserts, By His Name Yah, And exult before Him.

    Christina

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  5. Hey, in moment like this, all I can share with you is:
    Hold tight to memories for comfort,
    Lean on your friends for strength, and
    always remember how much you are cared about; even your little precious Kayla!

    Jen

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  6. May the love of those around you help you through the days ahead.

    Ken

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  7. Please accept our heartfelt condolences on the loss of your loved one.

    Chris Schaefer

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  8. Hey Sweetie, I can't imagine the sadness you must be feeling from your loss.
    Do take care of your self as well as your baby...
    you are meeting her face to face very soon......
    I will keep you in my prayers.

    Dory

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  9. Although no words can really help to ease the loss you bear, just know that you are very close in every thoughts and prayers from your loved ones.

    YâHuWaH יהוה baruch/bless you and keep you:
    YâHuWaH יהוה make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you,
    YâHuWaH יהוה lift up His countenance upon you, and give you shalom"
    Bamidbar/Number 6:24-26

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  10. May the serenity that comes from the memories of love shared comfort you and your family members now and in the days ahead.

    Mitzi Brown Bat Yah

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  11. We know the day will come but death always leaves us with grief. However, "What we have once enjoyed, we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes part of us." -Helen Keller -

    Isa 40:1 “Comfort, comfort, My people!” says your Elohim.
    Isa 40:29 He gives power to the faint, and to those who have no might He increases strength.

    Annette Angel

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  12. Love and sympathy,
    Maggie

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  13. I know that nothing anyone can say will take away the pain of your loss, may YAH comforts you with His loving kindness.

    Psalm 30:10 “Hear, O יהוה, and show me favor; יהוה (YaHuWaH), be my helper!”
    Psa 30:11 You have turned my mourning into dancing for me; You have torn off my sackcloth and girded me with gladness, Psa 30:12 So that esteem might praise You and not be silent. O יהוה my Elohim, I thank You forever.

    Deepest sympathy,
    Ela Conner

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  14. My heartfelt condolences on your loss. May the promise of Eternal Life in our MessiYAH Yahushua will bring great comfort to your soul.

    1Co 15:52 in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye, at the last trumpet. For the trumpet shall sound, and the dead shall be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed.
    1Co 15:53 For this corruptible has to put on incorruptible, and this mortal to put on immortality.
    1Co 15:54 And when this corruptible has put on incorruptible, and this mortal has put on immortality, then shall come to be the word that has been written, “Death is swallowed up in overcoming.” HalleluYAH!

    Shalom and Rest in the Everlasting Love of our Abba Father,
    Barbara Anderson

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  15. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. ~Kahlil Gibran

    May the Shalom of YAH and His Ever Lasting Love comfort you during this difficult time.

    Alice Weiss

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  16. Like a bird singing in the rain, let grateful memories survive in time of sorrow. ~Robert Louis Stevenson


    Please accept my deepest condolences for your family's loss
    Ed Moore

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  17. What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal. Your daughter Kayla, is included; she will be very grateful to you for all that you have cared for her!!

    Be encouraged.
    Matt

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  18. Love and death are the two great hinges on which all human sympathies turn.
    In one way, you are given a chance to experiencing Death & Life in such an close watch!

    1Co 15:21 For since death is through a man, resurrection of the dead is also through a Man.
    1Co 15:22 For as all die in Aḏam, so also all shall be made alive in MessiYah .

    HalleluYAH, live life through the resurrection life of our MessiYah!

    Tyler

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  19. "Do not be grief, for the Joy of YaHuWaH is your strength!" Nehemiah 8:10

    Be encouraged.

    Yahushua said in John 17:3, “This is ETERNAL LIFE, that they may know you, the ONE TRUE FATHER, and the MessiYah whom you send.” Yahushua ALWAYS pointed us to the Father- our Abba Father YaHuWah. He is in ALL of us and He will share Himself with any who will listen and respond to Him.

    Daniel

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  20. Dear precious daughter of Elohim,

    CALL upon HIM in your DISTRESS....YAH is a STRONG TOWER...a Place of REFUGE and COMFORT in the STORM....Baruch Ha Shem/Name of YaHuWaH!!!!

    Psalm 86:7 In the day of my distress I call upon YAH, For You answer me.
    Psalm 86:8 There is none like You among the mighty ones, O יהוה(YaHuWaH); And like Your works there are none.
    Lamentations 3:22 ...Oh, the kindnesses of יהוה(YaHuWaH) ! For we have not been consumed, For His compassion have not ended. Lam 3:23 They are new every morning, Great is Your trustworthiness.

    We keep you in prayers, stay REST and have Shalom in Him.

    Timothy Davis and family

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  21. Psalm 147:3 He heals the broken-hearted And binds up their wounds.

    May Yah comforts you and His life-giving power comes upon you and Kayla and make you WHOLE with perfect health!

    Krystine Mcleod

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