4 Months Into Motherhood

This year is pretty much the most amazing year of my life and I cannot be more thankful. Its been about 4.5months since I gave birth to my little Kayla and I'm feeling more than ready to have another baby hahaha. The horrible pregnancy I had feels like some distant memory now, and for some strange reason I can hardly remember how I felt then? I remember myself puking a lot at the beginning and then feeling all depressive because I became so big, but without all the emotions that accompanied it. Guess that's how mothers do it all over again and again heh

I guess I'm pretty lucky in regards to post pregnancy weight loss because I was able to fit into all my pre preggos clothing (UK size 6/8) within 3mths post-preg. I'm just gonna share a little bit here since a lot of people asked me how I lost all the weight (I gained 15kg). My postpartum garment actually helped a lot with losing my post-preg pouch during the first month, blogpost here. But I think actual weight loss was due to carrying baby around a lot. I've hated exercising since young, which resulted in me having a weak body with barely any muscles. When Kayla was about 6-8weeks old she had very bad colic that will cause her to cry for hours. It got so bad I'd have to continuously carry her while bouncing and walking around the house to calm her down. This lasted for a few weeks and it was the most strenuous exercise I've ever had to do in my life, no kidding. So I guess the key is to just be a super hands-on mom and keep carrying your baby around! I've also heard that breastfeeding helps with post pregnancy weight loss as well, so that's probably another factor :)   

One major change I've also noticed about my life now is the need to have to plan everything in advance! I.. absolutely.. cannot.. deal.. with.. last.. minute.. plans.. now. I'm even planning timeframes lol. If I'm going out without baby, I have to make sure I'm home within 6hrs or before 11pm (ideally before 10pm because my helper needs to go to bed). If I have 2 appointments in one day I'd have to make sure I have enough time to come home to pump out some milk in between (I really don't like pumping outside!). But despite all the trouble, I'm still happy to go out and I try to meet my friends a few days every week! I do feel bad that I'm always rushing home though; its like sometimes in the midst of some really meaningful conversation, I'd have to be the spoiler and break up the party because I need to go home to put baby to sleep.

I've gathered that motherhood is no easy feat, but it's really so so worth it. Looking back on the past couple of months, I feel so thankful that the process has been enjoyable so far. I know I've had it easier than a lot of moms out there, hence I've a newfound admiration for mothers who have been able to do everything on their own, especially single moms! Its truly heartwarming to see the lengths mothers go through to raise and protect their young ♥︎ I'm also following a bunch of beautiful instagram feeds by mothers now hehe, so wonderful to see the joys of motherhood through different eyes around the world :D